today i sthe fucking ugliest day of my life

i'll tell my kids,

prolonged holiday is the worst.

not a holiday exactly, any long pause between two sets of routines will kill you gradually. anything exceeding 5 months. it's the worst, fucking ugly worst that you can't look directly into its eyes.

when you have such pause, look for jobs. any job, no matter how unlucrative it sounds. it's much better than staying in your house cleaning up and doing fucking chores, which are supposedly easy, but not when you have one mom who tells you ever single thing you already know.

mom hates me, mom hates me






today i broke the lamp and the string of a ceiling fan in the guest room