there's a party in my graveyard
of course you're not invited

Everything is too fleeting and it is
Killing me
Sometimes it's there sometimes it's nowhere
Like a glitch
Nothing to hold on to
Not the past
Nor the future
The present, maybe
But the past is more vast
The present is too fast
It's like my whole lifespan is a one time series of effervescent
Like a bubble bath
It's gone, it dissipates before my eyes
Because
Really
Why
Why need there be a reason

What gym and school have to do with it

If you are considering going to a shrink for your depression
I recommend going to the gym
It is full of positivity that wont make you puke because
You need it
You need to be healthy

I havent been going for some time because
I had exams
Now they have passed and i have not gone back yet
And now that i mostly have my mind too empty
Unoccupied
I feel depressed
I thought it would be a good thing
To have a break

It isnt
I cried a lot today
Listening to tonight you belong to me in 'the jerk'
I put a blanket over me
My mom could still hear me and she asked
Why did i cry
I hate it
I didnt know because nothing and everything
Sucks at the same time
Pisses me off at the same time

I need to pee

WAS IT THE BEST FUCK YOU'VE EVER HAD?
i think i have some hormonal problems
i can't do that, you know, i will touch my genital or something
you lie down on your belly and slightly turn up. wait, are you a virgin?
so you like my dick huh? take it. take it all you want. it's your gift.
sorry, you should've told me earlier..i could go gentle.
do you like torture?
are you stoned yet?
i'm cute, but you're...you're really hot.
give me a kiss and i will tell you the name of the band.
you're hot
it is nice..and wet
you look so frightened
you're so horny
oops sorry, was it the ass?
you should be grateful you know.
let's be fair. take off your panties. nevermind. you look cute in panties.
no blowjob but yes to kissing and tits sucking?
i need to come.
can you do it longer this time?
just once?
sorry, was my dick too big..too painful for you?
i love you.
jesus you're so weird.

Wanna do some pleasureable activity, maybe, idk, just something nice other than fiddling with an idleness, which is okay as an idea, but maybe not today
If not, if its too much to ask for, besides the weight of your body pushing against me could be, could be too precious sometimes
I would be just all the same entertained, or maybe only slightly less, by just a wink of sleep